You curl up against him, shaking off the thought of people staring at you. Everything was going to be fine, right? You whine softly, rubbing your temples. You could just say your head hurts too much and go out another time.. But that wouldn’t be fair for Karkat.
yeah.. it really was.
You’re my favorite out of all of the Johns, too, and you know there’s a lot.
You sort of cradle him, trying to insert yourself in all of his curves. It might be cliche to say, but you sort of fit together like two puzzle pieces meant for each other. It sucks that his former Karkat was lost under the rug, never to fit again, but maybe you’re the piece sent from the company to replace it. Do they do that? You don’t think so, but whatever, it’s your mind and shit. Bluh.
We don’t have to go today if you don’t want to.
can we just. you know. lay here for a bit?
You turn around to lean on him fully, your ears draped around your skull motionless.
i know you want to go on a date right now and that i should get ready butcan i at least mentally prepare myself for a bit?
Yeah, go for it. Anything you need.
You unbutton the top part of your fancy shirt, and wish you hadn’t brought it up. It was still hard for John, and you should just accept that.
That leader of the pack thing really was clever of me.
woah haha! i don’t think i ever heard you whispering, really. it’s a lot better, though. easier on my ears by a thousand times right now.
You smile, resting your head on the arm of the couch for a bit.
bluh. it’s such a task though. he’s even got a fancy body suit thing so it hides my fur. don’t people look at you when you go outside?
OF COU- I mean, of course people like glare at me, for being alien when I’m not holed up in the house. I guess there’s just a difference between letting it get to you and letting it prevent you from the outside world.
Smiling back, you sit beside him, leaning on him without putting pressure on his probably aching body.
no it’s fine, you can’t help it. i guess i should just get used to it again since it’s been a while i’ve been with uh.. you i guess? or well other you. you know my erm. “ex.”
You grab his hand and squeeze it lightly, before leaning forward to press your lips on it.
it’s just that people will act weird towards me outside if i don’t disguise myself is all. my dad put together a pretty decent outfit the other day. it’s a pain to put on and keep on but it makes me look pretty normal and actually human. i have it in my sylladex.
also i like that metaphor you used.. you know leader of the pack…
NO, UH. UH OK HERE. Now I’m whispering, god, I haven’t whispered in sweeps.
You shift on your feet and lean forward to place a delicate kiss to John’s temple.
If it makes you feel better, who am I to stop you? I don’t want you to feel anxious, I want it to be a pleasant experience, one we remember and laugh about. I want it to be like in a movie, but without ending. Fuck, how did I become this cheesy?
hah, kar you saying that you will come visit me?? man guess i should clean up my house then!!
You raised a brow, frowning. Breaking off a nail sounded painful, and luckily she had /always/ kept her own nails super short, seeing as how if she didn’t they would end up getting in her way while she was out in the wild on her island or during the game.
well ouch!! that just sounds down right painful, karkat! why dont you let me cut them for you so its out of your hair and you dont risk breaking any nails off..
You glance down at your own hands, your fingers stubby and worn, not always the softest things but still managing to be clean and smell like lavender or fresh soil.
huh? i mean..theyre not /that/ short! :B
HAVEN’T WE ESTABLISHED THAT I WAS GOING TO BE VISITING YOU AT SOME POINT IN TIME?
You just stare. Not exactly considering the basic manicure she’s offering, but the question runs through your head.
NO, YOU’RE NOT TOUCHING MY NAILS WHEN I COME OUT THERE, WE WON’T HAVE NEARLY ENOUGH TIME. WE’RE GONNA GO ON AN ADVENTURE OR SOMETHING, I’VE JUST DECIDED.
Jade liked adventuring, right? You’ve got such a terrible memory Karkat!!!!
You look up at your alien boyfriend groggily. He was looking.. different. You couldn’t put your finger on it though.
..what? karkat didn’t i tell you to lower your voice a bit for just this once. gosh.
You groan, rubbing your temples. Migraines are horrible and you hate them with every vein in your body.
a date? right now? but.. i don’t know. i could wear a disguise, i guess. or i could just pretend i’m in a fursuit or something. i don’t know which is worse. where do you want to go? what time even is it? i think i lost track.. i’ve been napping all afternoon.
OH. SORRY. IT’S IN MY NATURE. I CAN’T HELP NOT YELLING, I GUESS, BUT I’M NOT REALLY SCREAMING AT YOU PERSONALLY OR WHATEVER.
You touch his shoulder gently, wishing you could will away the pain from John physically and mentally.
YOU KNOW, I REALLY DON’T MIND HAVING A DOG-SPRITE-MATESPRIT, IN FACT I’M QUITE GLAD THAT I HAVE YOU BECAUSE YOU’RE THE BEST. AND WHEN I SAY THAT I SAY IT WITH ACUTENESS, COMPARABLE TO ALL OTHER POSSIBLE CHOICES YOU ARE THE LEADER OF THE PACK. AND I LOVE YOU. AND I DON’T THINK YOU SHOULD DISGUISE WHAT YOU ARE, BECAUSE THEN YOU’D BE DISGUISING THE PERSON THAT I’M SO DEEPLY IN LOVE WITH.
((Huzzah, I am officially off that weird hiatus thing that I didn’t mention I was on. Oops.))
You smooth the wrinkles out of the only dress shirt you own, presumably grey and not even close to fashionable, but you make do as you walk into your living room, where John is resting his aching head on the couch.
HOW ABOUT WE GO OUT? LIKE FOR. FUCK, I DON’T KNOW, A DATE. I KNOW IT’S OUTSIDE AND STUFF, BUT I’LL BE THERE THE WHOLE TIME OBVIOUSLY AND I SWEAR TO GOD IF ANY OF THOSE OUTDOOR INCONSIDERATE NO-GOOD PUNK ASSRAGS WITH YOU I’LL BREAK THEIR TEETH IN.
With all the experience you have with human films nowadays, you hope your message came across warm and gooey and relationshippy. But of course, it probably didn’t.
heh, yeah we do have some pretty bad stuff down here but..i think those kinds of people like to stay out of the public eye in order to not get caught since its mostly illegal!!
You laugh, smiling kindly at the troll. His nails looked like they would break the skin when scratching but..maybe she was wrong?
hey kar, why are your finger nails so long?? dont you cut yourself by accident with those things?
WELL THAT CALMS MY NERVE, I WOULDN’T WANT MY EYES CLOUDED WITH THE SIGHT OF DRUGGIES GALLOPING ABOUT WITH THEIR SUBSTANCES IF I VISITED YOU.
You look down at the nails she’s talking about, spreading your fingers wide and smirking.
I DON’T KNOW, NOT REALLY, I GUESS MAYBE MY SKIN IS JUST TOUGHER. I’VE NEVER REALLY THOUGHT ABOUT IT. I FORGET TO CLIP MY NAILS, AS IT SEEMS TO BE A RATHER POINTLESS TASK, BUT SOMETIMES IF I HIT THEM ESPECIALLY HARD ON SOME WEIRD OBJECT WITH ENOUGH FORCE, THEY’LL BREAK OFF. SUCKS LIKE A BITCH.
WHY ARE *YOUR* NAILS SO SHORT?